Preoccupied

I haven't posted in a while.  Sorry.  But I guess you can say that I have been doing some "research" for the blog.  Yes, I went out on another online date.  I wish that I had something exciting to write or say something funny that has happened, but it hasn't.  In fact, I can't even think of a nickname for this guy....does that mean using Taylor's theory about how she can tell whether or not I really like a guy by the fact that I give him a nickname is true?  Because I think I kind of like him...

Here are the stats:  He works for some sort of insurance benefits type company.  He is 29 years old.  He likes wine, golf, and sushi.  He moved here about 7 months ago to start this new job and to get away from the girl he was engaged to and living with after she broke off the engagement 6 months before the wedding.  Hmmmm, everything sounds great except for the last one.

I asked him what he was looking for in this online dating experience.  He said he hasn't had a chance to meet a lot of people since he has lived here because he has been working so much.  And after hearing successful stories from friends about meeting people online he thought he would give it a try.  I'm the first girl that he has ever gone out with that he has met online and oh yeah, the first girl he has gone out with since the end of the engagement.  There again are two things that don't sound so great to me.

However, I feel like we did hit it off and he seems like a really nice guy.  We have hung out again and to the horror of my friend Cricket, I invited him to my house.  (She thinks he is going to murder me.)  Our plans to go to a local winery were spoiled by bad weather, so we decided to just watch a movie at my house.  We had a very nice time.  I was supposed to have a work party that night, but it was canceled due to weather and he had made plans with his dad for the evening, so he left at about 6:30.

I tell you what, I must have huge abandonment issues because as soon as he left I felt like I was never going to see him again. It was a huge “woe is me” moment.  I previously have dated a guy named Stupid Boy and I believe that he has ruined me.  When Stupid Boy would leave, I never knew when he was coming back and I think this fear has stuck with me.  I had a sinking feeling that this new “relationship” was going to end just like the one with Stupid Boy.

Why am I so insecure about things?  Why can’t I just relax and let what happens happen?  Why do I need to get so stressed about a guy I have only been on 2 dates with?  All questions that I wish I could answer so I knew how to fix myself.

I hope to have more positive posts in the future about this guy……